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Little about Lucas

Well Me… I have a great wife, two awesome kids, a dog and a lot of ideas about stuff. The biggest issue is where does one go with all this? It would be fantastically easy to keep working away at my job and come home, watch T.V. or just muddle around with stuff. I believe though if I went about life like this I would eventually feel like I had wasted my life away. Why would I feel like this? After all I have a wife and kids, a house etc etc. isn’t that really what most people are striving for. Now I should just be saving up for retirement. That just doesn’t seem like enough though there has to be more meaning to my life than that, or at least I have to make my life mean more than that. After all I believe that we are responsible for making our own meaning. So that brings me here writing stuff because I can, because this feels a lot more productive than just sitting in a chair watching T.V. At least here I am creating something. The real trick I guess is actually picking something to go for and then sticking to it until you make something of it. The hilarious issue at hand is that all the self help stuff that I have been reading about people doing really well for themselves and getting right into life and just taking action is written by, well, writers. So all the advice is somewhat geared towards writers so somewhere in the back of my head I have this little voice saying “are you just working on writing because you have read all these books about being a successful writer?” Maybe, but the kicker is that at least I’m doing something. I am making an effort to do something more productive than nothing.

So there’s that 🙂

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In the beginning

1st post round two.  Well as I’ve never set up one of these before I think I have just learned a valuable lesson already.  Do not write your whole blog online and expect it to remained saved somewhere.  It wasn’t so this is round two.  No worries it only took me two hours to write the first one.

I’ve been thinking about writing a blog for a long time, not for any particular reason, of course it would be wonderful if one day it made lots of money and I could sit back and watch the advertising revenue roll in, however odds are it won’t.  What it will do however is give me a place to write a whole bunch of stuff that otherwise would be nowhere.  Some of the stuff I post may be old stories I have written or things from journals past.  I might review some things and might try to give advice on some stuff, maybe it will help someone.  I guess in the end if my writing this helped one person steer their life in a slightly better direction then awesome.

The story to get me here:

Over the last year or so, I have matured, I’m 30 something so it was due.  It is hard waking up one day realizing that your life is blowing by you and you’re not really doing much.  Not that I wasn’t doing much, it just felt that way.  Really I was doing alright but you can’t be complacent.  Where was I that I was feeling this way?

A little over a year ago I was in a rut, I was going through all the motions of adulthood but didn’t really want to be there myself.  I had a family (wife and two kids – still have them but this is looking back) I had a house, paid off vehicles, great career where I’m a leader, an investment property, and no direction.  Having this no direction my weekends and a lot of afternoons consisted of drinks and general goofing around.  I’d get things done but for the most part I just wasn’t interested. For some people this might be exactly what they want but for me it felt like a rut.  I know I am capable of great things and instead I’m getting drunk arguing with my wife and making a fool of myself in front of the kids.  After one particularly bad evening that could have ended my marriage I came to a brutal realization – If I continue down this path I’m going to end up incredibly lonely some way or another.  So I quit drinking, after all this point’s to being an alcoholic right? At least that’s what I thought, but it was pretty easy, we still have lots of alcohol in the house and though it’s tempting to drink some I haven’t because I made myself and my wife and kids a promise.  No if I was a true alcoholic wouldn’t I just say screw all that noise and just drink anyway?  Anyways I digress, so I stopped drinking and started changing things in my life.  One of the main things was getting into a routine, I read some other blogs and books on this strategy and it made some sense (Benjamin Hardy is one that comes to mind, as well as Benjamin Franklin) I’m not the best at sticking to it but I am doing OK and will continue getting better over time.

The beauty of the routine is that it allowed me to kickstart some other habits with it as well.  Exercising, meditation, and journaling to name a few.  As I said I’m not perfect at it but as we travel down this path together I will keep you updated and we will see how it goes.

I think I’m going to keep this as the first post and we will move ahead from here.  Thanks for reading.